Bad Things Come to Those Who Worry

"These days with the world gettin colder,
She spends more time sleeping over than I planned.
It dark I know but then again...It's the brightest thing I've got..." --Covered in Rain, John Mayer

“We’ll be together forever, right? I mean, you don’t see us breaking up do you?” my lady said, injecting the thought right into my head.

Bad things come to people who worry. There is nothing more interesting to somebody then the fears of another person. And NOTHING makes you do something like somebody telling you not to does. I mean “don’t look down” is the best example. Another example is the guy in movies who goes “you wouldn’t kill us, surely!” is usually the first one six feet under. The kids at school that worry about being bullied are the kids who get bullied.

She placed thoughts in my head that weren’t there. Blissfully unaware of the REAL nature of teen relationships, my bubble was burst and I was forced out of my drug-induced haze to look at the world as it really is.

Teen relationships are like being in a sleeping dragons cave. You look around, and find gold on the ground. You see that the closer to the dragon you get, the more (and better quality) loot there is! The closer you get to that dragon, the better loot you have (lol, loot in the form of sexual delicacies and loving unity/closeness), but the better chance you have of waking it. And there is a certain point that you pass where it becomes impossible to retreat and NOT wake the dragon. This is what scared me on the ride home today.

Do I have a point where I have to commit myself? Have I gone too long? Too serious? If I try to escape the cave now, will I be eaten by that dragon? I never even THOUGHT of ending it, but now I worry. Is NOW the only chance I have to end it?

I don’t love her; I know that. I don’t love her in the way I have loved others. I am with her because I like to be with her. I couldn’t be in a relationship with ANYONE else, we have a connection that way. She thinks like I do relationship-wise, we’re on the same lever. Our connection and relationship is something unique to anything I’ve been involved in…but now im scared.Seeds of worry have been sown. Now, over time, I can see them growing. All I need now is water, and a little event between us will serve as this metaphor...

Why did she say it?! Bad things come to those who worry. Bad things also come to those who are AROUND people who worry. Don’t ever ask questions; just bask in the bliss that is handed to you.