Knowledgeable Regret

“…I mean for us, time is purely arbitrary.” –Nanki Poo, Hot Mikado

Isn’t it funny, we make choices every day but we never really know the implications of those choices. Yeah, sure; we can look back and say “oh I wonder what would have happened if…” but that’s not the same. Im talking about making a choice, then finding out later on what all your options really were. Almost like going back in time.

That brings up the argument, “if you went back in time to change something knowing the implications of your choice, would you do it?” If you knew what your other options were, if you knew what those other paths could be, if you knew the stuff you do now; would you make the same choice? Would you change it?

It’s a tough thing; it really is hard to make sense of. You obviously made those choices for a reason; wether it was so that you could learn a lesson or have an experience, or so somebody else could learn a lesson or have an experience. Do you have a right to change that? Is it in your best interests?

I found something out the other day that (if I had known it at the time) would have affected a choice I made. A choice that taught me a lot, but that was never one of my favourite choices (lol). Now that I think about it, now that I really think about it, I probably would have changed my history.

All this preaching ive done about not changing history because of the lessons you learn goes right out the window. Because one of my choices that I made, without knowing it was even a choice, made me lose something that I wanted. Want. Will always want. And in the end, even if I would have lost it anyway, I would have changed my history.

Now if that’s not hypocritical, nothing is!