Here's to Moving On *clink*

"Hope. It is the quintessential human delusion, simultaneously the source of your greatest strength and your greatest weakness" --The Matrix Reloaded

I have trouble letting things go. Its one of my vices I guess lol. I dunno, I guess im just always hoping for more. Lol, I try to stay out of reality if I can; much more interesting. But I guess I try and hold onto my hope, and I guess this is the reason for everyone else as well, is that we find it hard to try and live without the thing we want. And so we hold onto that hope; living out little scenarios in our heads of better times and different circumstances. Its funny, I can see bad points in her; its not like I think she’s perfect or anything. That might be the reason that I feel this way, imperfection. But lets move off that lol, the point is that I can see that she isn’t perfect. But I cant let her go lol, it’s a very sad thing let me tell you.

Theres nothing I can do now; not to help my situation nor satisfy whatever dreams I might belive in. Until I really see that, I don’t think I’ll ever let her go. I’m not going to do anything stupid, im past that, its down to a matter of endurance.

Hope is funny, we need it to fuel our minds; otherwise we collapse into nothingness. I mean, how can we function without a goal? A dream? We need something to strive to achieve, something to wish for. To long for. It’s what not only makes us human, but what we need as much as we do air and water.

And yet hope does its fair share of stupid things. It makes us believe things that aren’t real. It throws off our senses and takes us on ‘the scenic route’ of life. It also slams us down when our dreams go unfulfilled. I mean, what’s worse then believing something can happen and then having it blow up in your face. That’s when the bad hope starts, the hope to regain what you have lost. The hope im plagued with.

Which brings me back to moving on. We don’t like doing it for many reasons; its almost like giving up. Giving up on something we’ve believed in and hoped for and put so much effort into only to be let out to sea. So much effort, yet we concrete its feet and chuck it out to sea. How does that make us feel? Like we’re changing, and change can be a hard thing. “Everything that has a beginning has an end”, and people have trouble with that when they’re life is ‘perfect’.

“Everything has a beginning has an end”, the one rule of life. This one rule can make us scared, happy, fearful, angry. It can make us scream “unfair!”; it can make us think of the future; it can make us think of the past.

It can give us hope.